Like other fellow crafters, I have secret place. A place where incomplete projects go. Once a project is in there, it rarely escapes, let alone being free’d to be completed.
I have a special WIP (Work In Progress). It sits in a wicker hamper onto of the wardrobe away from the other WIPs. It’s not like other the WIPs, it will never be completed.
3 years ago I gave birth to a beautiful girl. Our second daughter, Eliza. We had a rough time during the birth which caused her complications. Sadly, 3 days later, Eliza died in my arms.
Our world crumbled. My soul was drained. I became a shadow of myself.
Whilst I was pregnant, I knitted Eliza various items. I couldn’t keep them, so I decided to frog them, and make a memory blanket. I knew how to knit, but had always wanted to crochet. I picked up a hook and learnt. The monotonous nature of knitting and crochet became healing. With each stitch I grew stronger. With each stitch a little part of my soul returned.
The squares are sat neatly in their wicker hamper. That blanket will never be completed. My grief will never be completed either. It’s part of me, I have grown to carry it.
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month with a Wave of Light in 15th October. In countries around the world, candles are lit at 7pm for an hour. This creates a Wave of Light round the world in memory of all the babies lost in pregnancy, at birth and in infancy. Eliza died during the Wave of Light. Knowing there were so many people thinking of her as she died was a comfort and in the following years, the Wave of Light has helped us remember Eliza. Please light a candle for all those precious Angel Babies.